I Am Free

There is a box.
I am in the box, alone.
Alone, I am in the box.

But I am not alone.

I am surrounded by my emotions.
By my emotions, I am surrounded.
It is not quiet.
It is not peaceful.
They crowd me - I have no space.
I search for escape, but none do I ever find.
I never find escape.

This box has no doors,
I cannot leave willingly.
This box has no windows,
I cannot see the way out.
This box has no doors, no windows - Just four blank walls.

But the roof is open, taunting me to climb out.
If only I could.
I run my nails across the wall,
my nails cannot grab on.

And as I try, the open top grows farther away.
Only farther away does the top go.
And I jump and plead for it to come back,
but it only gets louder,
it only gets violent.
I become drowned by my emotions.

Anger
Fear
Betrayal
Angst
Hatred

I drown.
No one can hear my cries, the roof is too far away.
Far away is the light, and the hope.
I hide away in my emotions.
I let them take me away.

I hear my name.
I search, and I find nothing.
Find nothing, but still hear my name.
It gets louder.

It's too loud.

I no longer hear my name,
My name I no longer hear.
Instead, just screams.
And then I realize . . .

it is me.

I am no longer alone.
Across from me is a mirror, and I see myself.
I am beautiful.
I feel light shine down on my face - the emotions are fading.

But I do not feel empty.

I feel hope.
Hope runs through my veins and fills me.
Me. No longer held back.
No longer someone else.
I am me,
Me I am.

The roof comes closer.
It gets brighter.
I am surrounded.

Happiness
Love
Excitement
Joy
Hope

The roof gets closer.
It gets brighter.
I am surrounded.

The roof gets so close, the walls fall over.
There is no box.
It gets brighter.
I am free.